When Life Gets in the Way

This is officially Week 12…the last week of this program and once again I am calling for a redo.  Only because last week and this week LIFE just got in the way.  I wasn’t able to fully commit like I should have because of other commitments and I don’t want to finish this challenge having not given it my all.  This week…Life is continuing to get in the way of the outlined regimen that this challenge requires but that is ok.  I realize that often times life and obligations will get in the way of the outlined plan.  Because really it is not realistic to live life every moment according to plan.  I am such a huge control freak that I would prefer that my life was lived that way….but I am realizing that is not attainable….and that’s ok.  I have still been able to get workouts in this last week and a half, just not at the gym and therefore not exactly as I would have liked to.  But its OK….I can take a step back, not beat myself up, and offer myself another opportunity to redo.  Granted this 12 week program will have turned into 14 weeks, but at least I will finish it knowing that I didn’t cheat the program or myself.  I stayed committed and did my best.  And when I couldn’t do my best, I took a second shot at it.  So…..starting next Monday I will be working hard to DO IT RIGHT….do my last week justice and finish this program with a bang! Until then, I will work out as hard as I can, wherever I can and continue to feel good knowing that I am benefitting my body and mind. 

Turnin that Final Corner.....

Dang....been a while since I blogged about this program.....guess thats what happens when all you have time to do is work, workout and EAT! I wish I had super amazing progress and results to discuss but my frustration level will show that I have in fact NOT been experiencing increasing results.  I am in my second to last week of this 12 week program and although I am proud of how far I have come and what I have learned, I am not seeing in the mirror who I imagined I would be seeing.  It's still the same ol me that I see....maybe with a couple additional muscle cuts but not what I had hoped for.  I admit that I did not operate EXACTLY as instructed without any flaws but did my absolute best to keep up with what was outlined in the program.  I keep telling myself that my figure....the physical figure I have right now and have had for a while now is just my body and I should work on accepting that.  But I can't seem to be ok with that.  I crave a physical appearance that I have not been able to attain....not even with this hard core regimen.  I refuse to accept that this is just who I am and my body is unchangeable....I can't give in to that thought.  I just need to find that one particular regimen that will trigger the results that I so badly desire.  My workouts in this final stretch include HIIT training and increased reps for my weight training.  I do appreciate how much easier it is for me to lift weights.  I am going for those dumbbells that are twice the weight than when I started and no longer do I feel so sore that I can't move after a workout.  My body has adjusted to maximizing intensity and I am mentally stronger and able to fight thru the pain because I crave that end result.  That feeling of success when leaving the gym...knowing that I did the best I could.  But....so far its not enough for me.  I am going to ride it out and finish this program with as much intensity as I began but it definitely is not over.....my drive to change my body and finally smile at who I see in the mirror. :)